In 2 days, I’ll turn 51. Fifty-one. FIFTY-ONE!!
When I was a kid anything over 30 was old, and I couldn’t even imagine myself getting to that ancient number. Then as I got older, the numbers got less important. I never actually felt like I was ageing, just adding more years to my count. Now it feels like time is standing still, and I just am what I am. And I’m pretty happy with that feeleing actually.
You know how it is when you’re little? There’s no way you could ever be a mum, in charge of someone else’s life, making important and responsible decisions. But it just seems to creep up on us; one minute you’re deciding which shoes would survive the muddy fields of a music festival, the next you’re driving your 12-year-old daughter to high school……HIGH SCHOOL!!!
The wonderful thing is that as the years add up, I don’t feel any older. I’m not saying that physically I don’t get a bit creaky, because some mornings I’m a little dusty. But in myself, I still think I can achieve anything, and push myself to do just that.
I think I’m lucky that the most important people in my life help keep me young. John is 9 years my junior, but absolutely the more grown-up out of both of us. Yes he’s hopeless when it comes to being tidy, or the day-to-day household routine, but pretty fabulous when it comes to financial stability and all the responsible stuff. So I still get to be as silly as I need to be, and still know that someone’s looking out for me.
Having a child in my late 30s has also helped, I think. While many women are coming into their grandparenting years at this age, I’m still doing all the little kid things, and I love it! Bell and I spend some beautiful times together, and how can you not feel young when you’re giggling and playing? Youtube comes in handy for some crazy inspiration too.
So yes, the numbers may be getting on, but I’m happy to say that I feel as youthful, hopeful and enthusiastic as I’ve ever been. I’ve had quite a few cool adventures up to now, and plan to have many more in the future.
Are you concerned about getting older or do you think age is just a number?